16 DEC

I used to love the number 16 before, like around 2 years ago
Well it's near my b-day and used to have a good day in my life
But Idk why, and I just noticed it till today
Always get sick Right in the date of DEC 16
Is it the cursed date for me o.o"
Date and month o.O"
Well someone who maybe read this can explain why
I thought I had the same kind of illness like last year
phew glad it's just a normal fever
And my huney, give me support to get cured ^3^
Plus watched final fantasy today together
Fell much much better..
planning to go to SG next year then come to his place ^3^
Hope everything goes well..

Anger

Most of us experience anger at one time or another. Others may get angry with us, justifiably or not. We may become angry at others, sometimes with very good reason, sometimes not. One thing is for sure, it is not a pleasant experience.

We cannot always reason with those that are bitter towards us and sometimes we may need to accept that it exists. To counteract this with retaliation is something that needs careful consideration.

"Consider how much more you often suffer from your anger and grief, than from those very things for which you are angry and grieved." - Marcus Antonius

Perhaps we are guilty of hostility more than we would like to be. Greater interaction with people should reduce these feelings. Less anger should result in more confidence and less stress.

Is a discussion possible and is it worthwhile? A few words and an exchange of viewpoints might result in one or both sides having a change in attitude. Try to see another point of view no matter how unreasonable it appears.

LOVE AGAIN

Don't say goodbye when you still want to try. 
Don't give up when you still feel you can. 
Don't say you do not love him anymore, if you can not let go.

Locked up

It really feels like I want to write something here
But my mind just stuck in.. uhm.. somewhere..
I want to write A, but it jumps to Z
I don't even know what I'm talking about 

Changed for BF/GF:is a must?

Many people are willing to change for the sake of their lover. Whether it was requested, or the desire itself. Transformed into a better person, obviously is not a problem. In fact, Cindy Haynes in The Book of Change, it was suggested. Moreover, if based on personal awareness.

What's wrong with you

Every moment every time you complain, you always feel less and less, you always feel unsatisfied. You are lack of gratitude, You're actually not making mistakes, because that's how real human beings.

This is the uniqueness of the Dead Sea, Israel - Jordan

The Dead Sea is a lake that ran in the region between Israel, the Palestinian Authority and Jordan Region. At 417.5 m below sea level, the lowest point on Earth's surface. The Dead Sea is very salty, which made ​​it impossible for living beings to live. This is the reason for its name. However, this is not really dead, because some types of bacteria can live here. Because water is so salty, people can easily float in the Dead Sea without any trouble. Travelers come from all over the world to float here.

The Warming Love Story

So this is the Story:
There's a girl who give a challenge to her Boyfriend to live without her
Not to communicate at all for one day
She said to her man
"If you can go pass thru that, I will loving you forever"
He agree
He didn't send any text or call her for one day

Blue Sky

If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky  today  is also stretching limitlessly and smiles at me…Yeah.. I’m alive! Today  the Blue sky will teach me a thing, everything will always change as the beautiful sky today, before I see cloudy skies over the vast expanse of parchment, but the winds obey your destiny replace paint the sky gray to blue, the sky was blue as the sun smiles leave, they want us to always smile, smile for now and then until the time enough to take off we go, because with a smile all the things that express sorrow will gradually disappear and make everything easier, remember the sadness when it approached every happiness that we have received so far, isn't it more joy than sadness? then what are we worried? Since every sadness or happiness will end soon and replaced by another event, a learning process to understand why we live today. 

Cheating vs. Truth

Cheating is sometimes seen as something that is so very interesting to do. So easy, instant, no need  long period  to process and then the pleasure can be enjoyed. But unlike the case with the truth, sometimes it does not look attractive, necessary process, need to pay the price, sacrifice, etc. need to keep the heart.

You are special

One day, a renowned motivator opened the his seminar with a unique way.
Holding the denomination of U.S. $ 100, he asked the audience, "Who wants this money?"

Happy can Love him

I don't know how long I will stand here. I don't know how long this will happen. Maybe I need more time. But how long? No one knows. Not even me. I still want to take care of the feelings that I have for him. Even he's not mine. I don't know maybe even he belongs to someone else.

Closed

Since the day I met him, Since the day I know him
Since the day he step into my heart
Since the day he said he love me
Since the day he spend his time on the cam just to watch me
Since that I feel like he's the one for me

When Love says HI

When love has been greeted
This heart feels helpless
A king's yield also

Bird Song

Birdsong in the morning light
 Making life become more patient
 Entertaining the doubts heart
Into dangers that always confront

Clock

I look at to the right
I saw a clock is watching me
Seems like he starring at me
The clock smiling so bright 
He is smiling, looking at me

This Heart cries

when i thought about him

But I don't know where is he right now
sometimes heart cried with this ​​emptiness 

searching and waiting for his love

Loneliness

Who knows when this will end
I could not face it alone
fly like a bird without wings
do not know when this feeling will disappear ......

loyalty

More Spectacular buildings In India

1. The space station Called Atmosphere-style structure will be built in Calcutta

Inspired by the traditional Hindu life and contains 80 families. A large terrace and wide enough to provide some families to enjoy the open space. It even includes a golf course for the sport.

Before you complain, Ponder This

Today before you say the words that are not good, think about someone who can not speak at all. Before you complain about the taste of your food, think about someone who did not have anything to eat. Before you complain about not having anything, think about someone who is begging on the streets. Before you complain that you're bad, think about someone who is at the level of the worst in his life. Before you complain about your husband or wife, think about someone who is asking the Lord to give mate.

Brain chip

For the first time IBM developed "Brain Chip"

This chip works on the basis of human thought patterns. This chip can be programmed to provide information without first such chip in general and can also respond to real-world signals such as temperature, sound, and movement. Challenges in training the computer to behave like a human brain has tested the limits of science for decades. But researchers from IBM today said they have made a key step toward combining two of the world.

Taj Mahal

10 FACTS ABOUT TAJ MAHAL

1. One of the most interesting facts about the Taj Mahal is that this building is visible with a variety of colors depending on the day, and whether there is the moon at night or not.
2. Taj Mahal is the most famous tourist attractions in the city of Agra. and imposing building was built by Shah Jahan.

Sakaki

Sakaki, the sacred tree of Shinto in Japan and his legend

In the Shinto religion in Japan, nature is something sanctified. To be able to relate to nature means to be close to God. Natural objects revered as sacred spirits (called us). Especially Sakaki tree or have a latin Cleyera this japonica. Sakaki tree is a tree with lush green leaves that are found in mythology, literature and sacred rituals in Japan.

 

New Shark Species Found in Fish Market

Scientists discovered a new species of sharks in the fish market Tashi, Taiwan. This may not be a matter of course, also not the first time. Previously, new shark species have also been found in Indonesia fish market in 2007. 

get Shock Can Make You Smarter in Math

Of course not electrocuted by high voltage. According to researchers at Oxford University, with a conductance SMALL to the brain can make it easier to learn math. They found that by pointing to parts of the brain called parialis lobe can enhance the ability of the volunteers in solving numerical problems.

Tekete: Half Regulated Ghost

Among the many urban legend in Japan, the story of one woman who is never stop to talking about. Teketeke, that's how she called, not only successfully make a shudder, but the story was kept alive for years. Let's get contact with this ghost.

Demon possession of Anneliese Michel Till Death

Anneliese Michel was born September 1952 in Klingenberg, Bavaria, Germany. SHe is a devout Catholic girl who, in 1968, when she was 16 years (high school), Anneliese began to suffer seizures. Unable to speak, scream, or ask for help, she then explained that she felt there was a large figure sitting on her chest. When Anneliese was 23 years old, an old family friend noted that Michel (Anneliese) unable to walk past icons like the cross of Jesus Christ & refused to drink holy water. She concluded that Anneliese had demon-possessed & advise to take it to the paranormal.

Chinese Prisoners Forced to Play Online Game

The prisoners in the  Jixi  camp, China, were forced to play online games  by the jailers. One former prisoner said, the purpose of this activity is none other than for profit. A total of 300 prisoners were forced to play games online that can generate money, such as World of Warcraft. The advantage gained will be controlled by the wardens.

Why Most Hour Always Turning to right?

In the past hour is a luxury object that can only be owned by rich people, its shape is still large. But now the hour has become a must-have equipment, its size has also evolved significantly. Have you thought about why the clock moves to the right? A glimpse of a little thing like this does seem trivial, but there is history of why the clock moves to the right.

Died cz Want to Prove something's not Important

History records many people who risked themselves to prove something they believe. What history does not tell us is that there are some people who risked their lives just trying to prove something that does not matter to anyone except for themselves.

Dogs eat Their Master

Dogs are cute.. But what if you forgot to feed em? Are they gonna Eat you? Well maybe.. 
And here is the true story about it

Keep Your HEAD down

Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king

(Everything has ended) I didn’t even start yet
(We broke up) I haven’t even heard the reason yet
Everyone around me keeps asking me why I’m like this
Why are you like that, why are you like that? I’m already the bad guy
 
(If it’s a sin) If loving you was a sin
(If that was a shin) If being genuine is a sin
(I’ll keep it low, I’ll keep it low) I’ll hold it in and stand my ground

(Keep your head down)
You look pretty, but inside you’re so different, that’s what I’m afraid of
(Keep your head down)
I said I loved you but I’ll let you go

Don't want to ask

Questions, wondering, dreaming, imagine, IF.....
Just comes when i keep asking the questions why
I just want to stop asking, and live my life with a piece of smile
They think it's funny
No it is not
They think it's sad
Well.. not really..
Don't want to be stuck just because someone won't let me move
Just because the mistake i've made
Doesn't mean I don't deserve to get a 2nd chance
If The 2nd chance wont comes from 1 person, but it can be found in another
but do I have the strength to move on?
well, i'm not sure

If you are one of this, Then you are not my friends

"It's all about me" type of friends.
They always talk about themselves. Also, they could care a less about you... your day, how you're feeling, etc. You may also notice that they brag a lot. Whether it be about themselves, materialistic possessions, boyfriend, getting married, or a vacation, they always find something to make them sound better than you. Seems to always have an opinion about everything. An opinion is a person's ideas and thoughts towards something. It is an assessment, judgment or evaluation of something. An egocentric person has no theory of mind, cannot "put himself in other people's shoes," and believes everyone sees what he sees (or that what he sees in some way exceeds what others see. It appears that this is shown mostly in younger children. They are unable to separate their own beliefs, thoughts and ideas from others.

Clingy. 
Can't share you with other people. When they do see you with other people, they're jealous because they want you all to themselves. 

Never acknowledges your ethnicity/culture. 
Considers you something else, and think it's alright to insult you heritage by using derogatory slang words around you knowing it offends you. Doesn't accept you for you for all that you are. 

Spies. 
These people are not your true friends. They are like assets and they maybe working for someone else to find about you. They may do this because they are jealous, if they want to teach you a lesson or if they want to get close to your boyfriend or brother. They are not really interested in you. You might notice that these people always need to know everything. They often try to overhear conversations between you and other people. They often lie. They may lie their name, age etc from you. Be careful from them.

Friendship vs. Love

Friendship is a quiet walk in the park with the one you trust.
Love is when you feel like you are the only two around.

Friendship is when they gaze into your eyes and you know they care.
Love is when they gaze into your eyes and it warms your heart.

Friendship is being close even when you are far apart.
Love is when you can still feel their hand on your heart
when they are not near.

Friendship is hoping that they experience the very best.
Love is when you bring them the very best.

Friendship occupies your mind.
Love occupies your soul.

Friendship is knowing that you will always try to be there
when in need.
Love is when you will give up everything to be at their side.

Friendship is a warm smile in the winter.
Love is a warming touch that sends a pulse through your heart.

Love is a beautiful smile to which nothing compares:
A tender laugh, which opens your heart,
A single touch that melts away your fears,
A smell that reminds you of the tenderness of heaven,
A voice that reminds you of the innocence of youth.

Friendship can survive without love.
Love cannot live without friendship.

friend sigh

It's so hard to walk with knowing that someone you love didn't feel the same way
Still he didn't understand why i was hiding something
What if someone you love not even have a special place for you to stay?
It is hard to keep the tears inside..
It is hard when you know he/she doesnt have the same path as you are
A friend who give you a choice about your life, Is it a friend?
A friend who told you that she/he understand but then told them to get away from you, is it a friend?
A friend said to you
"I know that you love him/her so much"
Then she/he said to your love one
"Hey, maybe you need to break up with her/him"
Is it a friend? 
Then you said about that those people just trying to protect and sad to know that I'm no longer her friend
Who she's trying to protect? 
You
Why?
Cz you are her friend, "brother"
Then who am I? Does she even try to make a friend with me?
Yes!
With what? saying I understand but back there said "Leave her!"
Is that a friend?
Does she really want to protect you or just want you not to give anyone else a special place in your heart, but just for her? 
Do I have a problem with my REAL friend here?
Hell No!
When my friend have a girlfriend, Then no longer talk to me as much as he can
Cz he want to take care of his GF feelings
Should I say..
"Hey, don't give my place to her. I'm your friend who will always be there whenever you need me"
true friend already know that before they asked for it.
Me? don't have a strong connection with my friend?
Cz when i tried to kill my self i don't think about them?
They understand that you are the one that can stop me.
They know that you have a special place in my heart, and they didn't complain about that
They know whenever i need em, I'll come back to them.
They know finally my life will end up with someone that i love
They know their position, Cz they will did the same thing...
They will make a happy family, with who? Someone that they LOVE 
Thats why they know if someone that i love have a special place in my heart
But seems like someone that i love didn't understand that.
Wait, have someone special in your heart as your lover doesnt mean that you have to get rid of the place of your friend.
I didn't say that.
Yes, I do want a serious relationship.
When i said serious, its serious.
but then back again, those things become the topic
About what have i done, that make him like this
Even I already told him about why why and why..
That's why I dont want to talk to someone who will just poisoning me with what they want
Well If what they want is really comes from their heart,
Without meaning taking all your happiness, thats fine.
But it will be a problem when what they said is the opposite from their act. 
Someone that read this may be understand what i mean.
Another writing is about why love have a special place in my heart,.. 

Save me

Don't let me feel down again..
i don't know what they said so he think i meant it to..
Why can't he see me?
How can he think i didn't see him?
He didn't see why, and why now...
I'm just a trapped for him
Be strong?? 
Again????
After i tried to stand from what happen with me before?
I can't stand for twice..
Ill close the door, It will never open again for anyone else
Will never again....
What should I do? What do I have to do?
Even people i don't know think that we're not together again..
And he said he love me but didn't in love.
I know.. i know its all my fault....
My fault to keep thing inside...
But it didn't mean that i talked about my past all the time,
Just when it comes..
When i thought She who knows him, understand what I feel..
She was so positive about me and him..
She gave all the support, 
But suddenly she tear it all apart,
I asked y didnt she do it from the start?
Just to protect.. She feels like im going to hurt him.
What she did before? Why she didn't do it from the start?
How can? she said she knows that I love him.. and i just still feel hurt..
But now? she gave him a choices.. She admit that, finally..
I dont even ever asked him to get away from all his friends
Why? Cz i know how close he is with them.. 
What? Why do i have to thinking about their feelings still? Why do i still care?
Wonder why my real friend in facebook give me support to stand still?
They are real, They've been with me all the time
At work i talk to them, So they must be know everything. T_T 
I might should be gone forever from everything...
I change my words a lot? 
all can be seen here.. when i feel like a bird with no path..
Even when i think about my past... Even when im so positive about us..
But guess is all no use anymore..
He's feelings has gone.. not even trust but love too..
Why do i have to cry for hours and hours again?
My fault again, telling them about what i feel...
Why you think im crying? not love? Why I want to kill my self? depressed. y? not love?
Even people i have never talked to before
Knows If something goin on, And asked me if Im ok? 
Cz ive been online and offline a lot
god, this is hurt.... so  badly hurt T_T
Save me before **************************** T_T

Scared

Leave me if you want it
Delete me
Blocked me
forget about me
geez.. 
I'm sick of love..
I don't want it.. But what if you want it?
What can I do? I should take the fall
cz knowing him is so beautiful 
god make me strong please..
Don't let these tears falling from my eyes
Make me strong with what i'll hear when he get online
I don't want to cry please...
I'm so scared..
Someone please stop these tears.. T_T
Hug me when im scared T_T 

Afraid

Ya tuhan.. gmn aku bs melalui smua ini?T_T
Itu cewe bener-bener di luar dugaan.
Waktu aku tanya, kenapa dia memberikan support ke aku untuk melupakan mantan?
Dia bilang, berbagai macam alasan,
Dia tau aku sayang cowo aku
dia tau aku hanya sakit hati, kesel dll 
Dia tau kita saling cinta.
Tapi kemudian, dia bilang dia ga mau cowo aku sakit hati T_T
Aku tanya "kalo dari awal kamu nggak percaya sama aku untuk jadi cewenya, Kenapa omongan kamu manis sekali?"
dia bilang "siapa yang bilang nggak percaya?"
Aku bilang "feelings like you want to protect someone is when you feel that someone is in danger"
dia nggak bisa bilang apa2..
Kecuali dia bilang kalo aku terlalu serius dalam sgala hal. aku gila. aku perlu menata diriku sendiri.
Dia yang bilang kalo cowo aku ngerasa happy even if i bug him a lot..
tapi sekarang.. dia bilang aku too much.
Dia bahkan yang bilang kalo lil ngejelek2in dia
Padahal lil sendiri nggak pernah ngomongin dia
Sumpah.. Jujur.. aku takut sekarang T_T

Percaya dengan apa yang kamu mau

Lagi...
hampir saja aku kehilangan lagi orang yang ku sayang
kenapa?
karena aku bodoh...
iya aku yang bodoh..
tidak seharusnya aku merahasiakan sesuatu darinya
Seharusnya aku yang mengatakan dan bukan dia yang mendengar dari orang lain,
seharusnya aku percaya sama diriku sendiri
Seharusnya aku percaya sama orang yang aku sayang
Tapi, aku malah mempercayakan orang lain untuk mendengar cerita aku.
Sahabatku benar,
mereka yang mendengar cerita aku, tapi tidak mengenal aku, akan menceritakan dengan versi mereka sendiri..
Aku salah telah menaruh kepercayaan lebih kepada orang lain
Tapi bukan kepada dia.
-sigh-
Aku tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi
Kalau aku sampai kehilangan dia
karena aku sangat sayang dia
Aku tidak akan lagi mengatakan apapun atau bahkan menaruh kepercayaan kepada siapapun
mengenai hubungan aku kecuali hanya kepada dia,
Hanya dia yang mengerti aku
Dan dengan bodohnya
Aku tidak mempercayai dia,
dan terus takut dalam ketakutan ku sendiri.
Tapi, tetap aku berterima kasih kepada mereka
Karena mereka sudah mau mendengarkan cerita ku

Namun aku mengakui bahwa..
aku lemah dan bodoh..
Satu yang aku tahu dengan pasti adalah aku sayang dia
Siapapun bisa mengatakan bahwa aku tidak mencintai dia,
Tapi aku percaya bahwa dia melihat dengan hatinya, Bahwa hanya dialah yang aku cinta.
Segala hal yang seharusnya terkubur, terbuka kembali.
Namun semua yang dia dengar bukan dari diriku sendiri, Bukan dari orang yang mengenal aku
Satu yang pasti, bahwa mereka tidak akan pernah bisa merubah perasaan ku
Perasaan sayang ku padanya,
atau bahkan sampai menentukan apa yang harus ku pilih.
Sahabatku tahu, berulang kali aku jatuh kepada orang yang salah, 
Tapi mereka tidak pernah mengatakan padaku untuk menjauhinya, mengakhiri hubungan
Mereka tetap mendengarkan cerita aku
Mereka tetap memeluk aku pada saat aku bersedih
dan mereka tidak meninggalkan aku saat aku berdiri di jalan yang salah
Itulah arti persahabatan.
Sekarang aku harus lebih terbuka kepadanya,
menyingkirkan segala ketakutan ku untuk mengatakan sesuatu
Dia adalah masa depan ku
Dia bukan masa lalu
Apa yang aku jalani sekarang, adalah masa depan
Jika dulu, dengan mengatakan segalanya aku salah
Tidak untuk kali ini,
Dia orang yang berbeda.
Dia seseorang yang aku cinta

When I am..

Dearest love...
If u are asking me why.. Whats wrong with me..
What's going on?
What's happen?
This is the answer of all your questions


When I'm so quiet..
Millions of things are running in my mind
When I'm not arguing..
I'm thinking deeply
When I look at you with eyes full of questions
I wonder how long you will be around?
When i said i'm fine after a few seconds
Actually i'm not that fine
When i stares at you..
I wonder why are you laying?
When i said i want to lay on you chest..
I'm wishing for you to be mine forever
When I calls you everyday
I'm looking for you attention
When i send you an sms everyday
I want you to reply at least once...
When i say i love you
I mean it...
When i say I can't live without you
I have made up my mind that you are my future
when i say i miss you
No one in this world can miss you more than i do... 

I'm sorry

Dear huney, 

I'm sorry for 2day hun
I'm sorry if what i said makes you think 
that i don't love you
or i still love him
It's not like that
It's not like i've been thinking about him all the time
more than when i'm thinking about you
I just can't forgive
I can't forgive him, i can't forgive my self
All the questions keep spinning in my head
why, why, why,

I know that it will bring me nowhere
Just gonna waste my time more and more
i do have to learn to forgive my self 1st

I didn't mean to hurt you
I know why i keep thinking about it
It's all because i'm scared
I'm scared of loosing someone that i love
someone that i care of 
scared of loosing you 
I'm scared if the dreams that i've build gonna be broken again
This is why i'm scared of answering 
when they asked me about us
Once i open my mouth,
I'll tell the dreams that i have
All the plan that we made
but then there's a thing comes in my mind
What if all the things that i've said will never become true again?
It will hurt me, ill feel down again
lost all motivation...

I know that u've been saying that u will manytimes
and it doesnt mean that i didn't trust you
Everytime i heard those words
U make me smile
It's just all the fear will gone when u come here

Please 4give me cz i didn't mean anything 

Hate this

Why do I have to keep this hate inside me?
This feelings just make me keep saying bad words
The words that i don't have to say
Why there are still so many questions?
Why do i still want to know the answer?
i know that i'll regret to what i've said 
just bcz of the anger that i have

I'm trying to control it
But sometimes i can't
I want to stop this
and I HAVE TO!!! 

Hug me

When i feel like I'm all alone

Just hug me

When i feel full of anger

Just hug me

When i feel down

Just hug me

You don't have to do lot of things

just to make me feel happy

Hug me and whisper that everything's will be fine

Then i will feel better

Hugging means everything to me

Thats why I do want to see you just 

so i can feel the warmth of your hug

I will sleep on ur chest 

without thinking about anything else

Even i have to wait, I'll wait

Even sometimes this waiting hurts me

I'll stay..

Come to me bebe, and let me stay

The truth and normal

When you love someone 
you feel like you always want to get close to them
It's normal..
When you like someone 
your heart beating fast..
It's normal..
When you love someone 
you'll do anything just to make them happy
It's normal...
When you like someone
and you want to have a dream with them
It's normal...
When you're be with someone
and you seek for information just to know them more
Its normal...
When you told em what you feel
just so they can understand your feelings 
It's normal...


When you hate someone
You want curse em..
You want kill em..
You want scream at them..
You want them to say sorry sincerely..
It's normal..


That's what I asked to all my friend
and they keep saying..
You are normal...


Wont be normal
When you said that u love em
But then you hurt them
When you said you'll never cheat
but then you did it..
When you feel ok when you're happy
But other's feel hurt...
When you're trying to make them feel sad
So they will leave you soon, so you they wont see that it's your fault 
You made a dream but you spit on it..
You say a words but then u ate it again... 
That can't be normal..
That just means.. 
You never love them just like what you used to say..
You just want to make an excuse
You just don't want other's to see that you are guilty
You just care about ur reputation


And still
I'm learning how to forgive this situation

I shouldn't have

aaaaa...

Why i open it again T_T

Read everything that already happen makes me sad >.<

I remember again and again T_T

The words "Sorry for the pain"

How easy to say, 

And why people keep saying sorry after what they've done

Geez.. still i can't forget it all

Idk exactly when i can erase this all

Sorry.. sorry .. sorry...

What a nonsense >.<

Dear god, Let em feel what i feel

Who can understand my pain?

If i upload all the conversation in here they will know how it's so sudden

Do i have to keep this all, inside? all alone?

Hurt so bad again T_T like im going to... T_T

New lesson

Wahhh.. never feel so alive like 2 day..
I learned many things.. At work.. At home o.o
Meet new people who share her skill to us
Her positive thinking can be found on her face..
Smiling everyday, Idk but her face can make us feel happy..


On the way back home I kept thinking about the problem between the provider and my dad
i do so curious about what happen >.<
But then, I can explain to my dad about what they mean


Straight to the point of what can be learned from this problem are...
1. Not everyone understand about the billing statement, So when they asked you to explain it you need to be in the same thought with them.
2. How important the note is for people who works in Customer service..


Idk exactly when  my dad asked for an adjustment,
What i don't get is Y they didn't explain that they will deduct it in the next billing statement for the next month before my dad asked for an adjustment.


Cz u know what.. What's in the billing statement was like this
dec.. 17 Rp.4***
         21 Rp.4*** (they do billed it twice)
Jan..  18 Rp. 3*** (we upgrade to premium should be 7*** but They deduct the billing already bcz of the double pymt that my dad did)
Feb 17 Rp. 7*** (all back to normal)
march... 07 Adjustment Rp. 4****
             17 Rp. 1.1*** (what the.... Whats the meaning of this? is that means if they just realize actually they already deduct the Bill in Jan but they give the money back in march too or what o.O? So who's fault?)


The question is y did they give money to my dad in march  if they already  deduct it in jan o.O?


if it cz my dad already asked for an adjustment b4 the billing statement in Jan appear. Ok make sense. Then y didn't they pending the auto reduction for the next billing statement? They do have a note about it rite o.O? Other case that might happen is my dad asked for an adjustment after the cycle date In Jan. Then why they didn't explain if the bill in Jan is already deductible Bcz of the double payment in Dec rather than continuing the adjustment while they actually already did for the bill statement in january o.O.. Isn't that means that they didn't really read the note from all the costumer who called em o.O?


My dad insist, he wants them to admit if their service is so bad and my dad want them to fix the system.
Sigh..
I know how hard to get to the manager and fix the system of the company.. Who are we? o.O?
Well, I take a position as my dad "Yes i admit that their service is bad"
Then i take the position as the provider "Wow, This cust really care about us."


Phew..what a nice experience..

I'm scared

i am afraid of no one actually caring about me.
i fear that the people in my life will not always be
there like they say they will.
i want friends that i can count on and love for the  

rest of mine and there life.
i have been hurt and abondend by many
and fear that everyone will do the same.
I am affraid that when i relize that no one actually
cares about me
and i come to face that fact that i will finnaly end
my fear and leave them.
it hurts me when i cant trust people that i really
want to

but i just cant
because once i do they will leave and
i will be played and shown a fool again.
And sooner or later i know i will just end it all
i wont have to worry about being
affraid ever again.

Broken Promises

When the wind blows You give me a promise
When the seagull crows You give me a promise

When it's the light of day You give me a promise.
In the month of September You give me a promise.

Promises mean nothing to you, You give them away.
From now on you will lose,What you may.

Sometimes it seems I've spent most of my life
Hoping someone, somewhere Would keep a single promise to me
They are made so easily Most with little thought Just words said at a moment
Because it's what they thought I wanted to hear
With no real intention Of ever keeping it

Some are impossible to keep And that I do understand
I guess it's mostly Just me being selfish For once wanting to be Important enough to someone
For them to stand by what they say
So I go on living a life Full of broken promises
Waiting for the one That will keep their word

How much?

Do you know how much I hate U?
A lot....
How can you step on me when I'm happy?
Wonder what if u become my shoes, who's gona step on you everytime i'm walking
How can you smile when I'm suffering here?
Wonder what if I become one thing that you really hate, Who's gona stab you everytime you try to reach
How can you turn all the dreams into nothing?
Wonder what if I become someone who always say "YES", when i didn't really mean it?
How can you want me to believe everything u've said?
What if I become someone who's actually telling you a lot of lies?
How can you make me suddenly sad, when i already told everyone how happy i am?
What if I become someone who's actually cheating on you?
What if you find out if your not the one all this time?
how'd you feel?
If u didnt love me, I'm sure u wont feel anything
Then just imagine if "I'm" is the girl in ur life RIGHT NOW!
You'll know how much i hate you this time.
But sometimes suddenly this hate feelings become nothing
Sometimes I wish that you are happy
Sorry cz i cant be someone that u want
Sorry if i just become a trash
But never mind
now I've already find someone Who's better than you

 

Who always know how to make me happy
who always know what to do when i feel lonely
who will break all the walls infront of us
Who can share all his thought
Who always calling me "Sweetie"
Who wants to spend his lil time to be with me eventho we're far and busy
He is someone who want to listen to what i said
Who laugh when I made a joke
Who didnt make me feel invisible
Who's gonna across the sea to take me into his arms 
He's someone important in my life
Who never Bragging, who have a low profile
Anyway 
Karma will always happen
Karma never choose people 

Why say

That girl is wondering
Why people say that they love her but then they hurt her
Why people say that she will never be alone but then they walked away
Why people say that she's pretty but then they had others besides them
That girl still can't forget all the words that they said
That girl can't even make that shadow fade away
She said, "forgive me"
If only she had to choose,
She'll choose that she's never meet that people
Cause it's so hard for her to forget about all the things
They say, It's good for her, It's the best for her
Doesn't they think how hurt she is
What's the best for saying a thing If it's only a fake.

Let me sleep

Geez,,, This "GHOST" thing wont let me sleep
That ghost keep flying in my head
When will that ghost leave me alone?
When will that ghost left me and let me walk on my life?
If only i can turn back time
I would choose never seen that ghost.
He looks so handsome at the first time but suddenly.. omg so scary
Where's my huney? >_> he must be still sleeping
I swear when he get here, i'll hold him tight >_>

Heridas Secreto

Asusta a mi se desvanecen,
Pero nunca desaparece,
Siempre que me quedo
Y darle un motivo de vergüenza.
Que le da una razón para la demanda,
Que usted está completamente loco

Las cicatrices que tiene que ocultar,
Al igual que las lágrimas que he llorado,
Y el dolor que se ha construido en su interior.
Aunque la gente se preguntará y preguntar por qué,
Usted no va a responder, de pie, sin nadie a tu lado
Usted acaba de terminar ocultando, detrás de las mentiras.

Here's how to forget

Forget Him
Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember He has SOMEONE NEW
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when You CRIED ALL NIGHT LONG 
Forget how close you once were
Remember he has CHOSEN HER 
Forget how you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember He has GONE AWAY 
Forget his laugh
Forget his grin
Forget the way he'd held you tight
Remember he's WITH HER TONIGHT
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, IT'S PAST 
Forget he said "HE'D LEAVE YOU NEVER"
Remember He's "GONE FOREVER"

Food and Love + sleepy xD

2day i wake up really2 late.. and sure no bath 
Was thinking "I'm feeling so lazy to go to work"
But then "I want the money"  
So yea I went to work anyways  
 But U know what.. There's so many food today.. I ate ate n ate and I'm still feeling so full  

It is my friend b-day today, and my office had an event

Gosh food everywhere

Oh yea, at my way back home i was thinking about something

Somethin i want to tell my huney 

"Dun love me bcz of my appearance, Bcz It will make him get bored of me easily"

Doesn't mean be hypocritical, everyone must like someone or love someone by their appearance  first, but i hope as time goes by he will love me because of my self

He left me a msg..
Was so surprise cz he never do it when he had to work before But no matter what, he made me so happy 
Can't wait for sat.. cz thats when we will meet...
Awwww i miss him