I'm scared

i am afraid of no one actually caring about me.
i fear that the people in my life will not always be
there like they say they will.
i want friends that i can count on and love for the  

rest of mine and there life.
i have been hurt and abondend by many
and fear that everyone will do the same.
I am affraid that when i relize that no one actually
cares about me
and i come to face that fact that i will finnaly end
my fear and leave them.
it hurts me when i cant trust people that i really
want to

but i just cant
because once i do they will leave and
i will be played and shown a fool again.
And sooner or later i know i will just end it all
i wont have to worry about being
affraid ever again.