Broken Promises

When the wind blows You give me a promise
When the seagull crows You give me a promise

When it's the light of day You give me a promise.
In the month of September You give me a promise.

Promises mean nothing to you, You give them away.
From now on you will lose,What you may.

Sometimes it seems I've spent most of my life
Hoping someone, somewhere Would keep a single promise to me
They are made so easily Most with little thought Just words said at a moment
Because it's what they thought I wanted to hear
With no real intention Of ever keeping it

Some are impossible to keep And that I do understand
I guess it's mostly Just me being selfish For once wanting to be Important enough to someone
For them to stand by what they say
So I go on living a life Full of broken promises
Waiting for the one That will keep their word

How much?

Do you know how much I hate U?
A lot....
How can you step on me when I'm happy?
Wonder what if u become my shoes, who's gona step on you everytime i'm walking
How can you smile when I'm suffering here?
Wonder what if I become one thing that you really hate, Who's gona stab you everytime you try to reach
How can you turn all the dreams into nothing?
Wonder what if I become someone who always say "YES", when i didn't really mean it?
How can you want me to believe everything u've said?
What if I become someone who's actually telling you a lot of lies?
How can you make me suddenly sad, when i already told everyone how happy i am?
What if I become someone who's actually cheating on you?
What if you find out if your not the one all this time?
how'd you feel?
If u didnt love me, I'm sure u wont feel anything
Then just imagine if "I'm" is the girl in ur life RIGHT NOW!
You'll know how much i hate you this time.
But sometimes suddenly this hate feelings become nothing
Sometimes I wish that you are happy
Sorry cz i cant be someone that u want
Sorry if i just become a trash
But never mind
now I've already find someone Who's better than you

 

Who always know how to make me happy
who always know what to do when i feel lonely
who will break all the walls infront of us
Who can share all his thought
Who always calling me "Sweetie"
Who wants to spend his lil time to be with me eventho we're far and busy
He is someone who want to listen to what i said
Who laugh when I made a joke
Who didnt make me feel invisible
Who's gonna across the sea to take me into his arms 
He's someone important in my life
Who never Bragging, who have a low profile
Anyway 
Karma will always happen
Karma never choose people 

Why say

That girl is wondering
Why people say that they love her but then they hurt her
Why people say that she will never be alone but then they walked away
Why people say that she's pretty but then they had others besides them
That girl still can't forget all the words that they said
That girl can't even make that shadow fade away
She said, "forgive me"
If only she had to choose,
She'll choose that she's never meet that people
Cause it's so hard for her to forget about all the things
They say, It's good for her, It's the best for her
Doesn't they think how hurt she is
What's the best for saying a thing If it's only a fake.

Let me sleep

Geez,,, This "GHOST" thing wont let me sleep
That ghost keep flying in my head
When will that ghost leave me alone?
When will that ghost left me and let me walk on my life?
If only i can turn back time
I would choose never seen that ghost.
He looks so handsome at the first time but suddenly.. omg so scary
Where's my huney? >_> he must be still sleeping
I swear when he get here, i'll hold him tight >_>

Heridas Secreto

Asusta a mi se desvanecen,
Pero nunca desaparece,
Siempre que me quedo
Y darle un motivo de vergüenza.
Que le da una razón para la demanda,
Que usted está completamente loco

Las cicatrices que tiene que ocultar,
Al igual que las lágrimas que he llorado,
Y el dolor que se ha construido en su interior.
Aunque la gente se preguntará y preguntar por qué,
Usted no va a responder, de pie, sin nadie a tu lado
Usted acaba de terminar ocultando, detrás de las mentiras.

Here's how to forget

Forget Him
Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember He has SOMEONE NEW
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when You CRIED ALL NIGHT LONG 
Forget how close you once were
Remember he has CHOSEN HER 
Forget how you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember He has GONE AWAY 
Forget his laugh
Forget his grin
Forget the way he'd held you tight
Remember he's WITH HER TONIGHT
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, IT'S PAST 
Forget he said "HE'D LEAVE YOU NEVER"
Remember He's "GONE FOREVER"

Food and Love + sleepy xD

2day i wake up really2 late.. and sure no bath 
Was thinking "I'm feeling so lazy to go to work"
But then "I want the money"  
So yea I went to work anyways  
 But U know what.. There's so many food today.. I ate ate n ate and I'm still feeling so full  

It is my friend b-day today, and my office had an event

Gosh food everywhere

Oh yea, at my way back home i was thinking about something

Somethin i want to tell my huney 

"Dun love me bcz of my appearance, Bcz It will make him get bored of me easily"

Doesn't mean be hypocritical, everyone must like someone or love someone by their appearance  first, but i hope as time goes by he will love me because of my self

He left me a msg..
Was so surprise cz he never do it when he had to work before But no matter what, he made me so happy 
Can't wait for sat.. cz thats when we will meet...
Awwww i miss him 

 

Special feelings that's so annoying

D, what happen with this feelings? Feels like i feel something but i can't let it out. i have a bad feelings.
Some people said its just a feelings. But they didn't know what happen to all the feelings i have felt before.
Like before my mom passed away, I have a bad feelings too
2 days b4 she's passed away, I told someone that i dun want to loose my dad
Every night i went to their room, just to see if they're still breathing
2 days without sleeping,
and at the day my mom passed away, i slept like at 9.
No one knows that
When my dad tried  to call my CP, i couldn't wake up, cz i was jst sleeping
From that moment i got trauma for like a month, Scared to sleep.
Then with my prev relationship, 
before he left me, I keep asking if he.. and if he..
Many times i had a dream that he have another girl,
A week before he left me i had a dream that he said "I can't do this anymore"
Bang.. all my dreams come true.
Some people said when i dream about something, its just a dream
but they didn't know if my dream most of the times becoming true
Even with my bf now, I was dreaming that suddenly he's gone.
MSN off for a long time, gone without a word
Then yesterday he said he have to work at my friday,
That means we're not gonna meet till my sat
 what will happen if he didn't told me that
Then my dreams will become true
Glad i told him before it happens >_> 
It's hard to walk with having a special feelings like this
I hope nothing's gonna happen with all people that i love
My huney, my dad, my sist, my family, my friend, to everyone who loves me
I do hope everyone will be alright 
amin...

He always spoiled me

aaahhh.. Was talking to him.. And i just told him if there's 1 thing that i like to be with him.. is he spoiled me all the time .. I can be my self for real.. when mad, sad, happy, he accept it and keep giving  me a hug >3>
And he was telling me if i let him buy me something.. 
but ummm.. he dun have to 
Cz all that i want is jst him to come here.. and i dun need stuff >3>
but if he want to buy things for him self then go on.. i jst asked 1 save some to come here >3>

Freedom Loving

This girl is laid back
Easygoing with people
Too much intensity tires her out
She believe that  there is a lot to still be discovered in this world
She dun like to be under rules when she wants to do something
But then she will missing some rules when she's feeling lonely
But she love who she is,
She realize lot of people cant be honest with their self
She dun get it why people love to lie even to their self
She understand some people might not understand it
But she wont get tired of showing who she's really are
No matter what happens, she have the ability to stay well grounded in her life
And People know that they can truly depend on her. 

un explained feelings

gosh d..
I dun know how 2 explain this 
happy n fear all in my heart o.o
I'm happy cz he made me happy
I'm scared of loosing him o.o
ummm
Miss him so muuucccchhhh
been 3 days not talking to him, but when he come back omg... i feel relieved..
he made me falling in love again o.o a lot. way lot o.o
He have a crazy schedule...
We might not talking again for ummm 2 or 3 days o.o
But u know, well i'm trying to work with all this feeling instead of against me
I dun want to fight just because we didnt talk for 3 days cz its all for his job
I can respect it cz he respect my feelings with telling me everything,
So i dun think if i have to be negative about him
Actually love is kinda freaky for me XD
but my heart always have or get what my heart wants lolz
I can't help it even stop it x.x
waiting and waiting.. I always can do that xD
Im sure i can do it again now >3>
He knows everything about me..
Way much more than everyone knows lolz
aaaaahhhh love him >3>

Passionate

love can be red,like the intense heat of a passionate kiss
.....the color of sweetness
.....the color of strawberries
love can be blue,like the comfort we take in a pair of denim jeans
 .....the color of strength
.....the color of perfect skies
love can be yellow,bright and warm like the morning sun
.....like the sounds of laughters of children on the merry-go-round
.....like the sounds of fun from the boys flying kites in the open fields
love can be green,peaceful and serene i can hear your heart beats
.....it is the feeling of a loving hand that touch a grieving heart
.....it is the whispering of trusting words to a distressing soul
love can be orange,the loudness of it can drive you up a wall
.....it can drive you to sing like nobody is listening
.....it can drive you to dance like nobody is watching
love can be purple,the courage we need to love bravely and unselfishly
.....the moment i first kiss you i know that i am not afraid to risk involvement
.....the day the declaration of your love for me was made known to the world

Nice try

It's a funny thing's today
Me n my fren was taking a lunch 
My fren was so crazy about what we called "bule" here. 
Which is foreign people,
Then i told her,
If you dare, then try to talk to them 
YOu know what she did?
She pretend like she didnt bring any lighter
Then she said "Sorry, may i borrow your lighter?"
Then that man give her a lighter and light it for her XD
What i'm saying is just a nice try.. lolz

Ah yea, i wonder what happen to my finger 
Its hurt, like a bug has bite it
But i didn't feel it o.o
Its kinda swollen o.o
I wonder what kind of bug that dare to bite me >|
usually i'm the one who love to bite >| lolz

And.... I miss my huneyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
so so bad.....
But i'm not worried o.o
Cz i didn't have any bad feelings about him
You know even i have a LDR
I used to feel somethings wrong when my bf did something bad behind me :P
But this one.. I feel ok ^_^
Now jst wishing so i can talk to him soon >3>

Showing Love

In times of need, you held her hand
And led her through the circumstances.
You were always there when she needed someone
Desperately; she have various instances.

When she was scared or anxious in a way,
You were the first to provide shelter
she have no idea how she would have faced it otherwise,
Probably run helter-skelter ?

When she was angry, loathe, fuming,
You were the one to cool her down
When she was sad, feeling lonely, you came
To give her company from across town.

Whenever she called, you always replied,
Setting aside all your work.
You cleared her vision, made her see
Any dangers that in her path may lurk.

All this time, she have never said this  
she's grateful to have someone like you;
Who will always be there to support her freely?
In anything correct that she did.

However, you’ll be the very, very first
To point out all her mistakes and faults,
And make her a better person in life
she thank you deeply 
she thank you for it all.

Patient

Wow.. What a hard day...
They really really want to testing my patience
in the morning, There's a girl in front of me ridding motorcycle unexpectedly stop
Glad nothing happen -_-
Then a girl who sit next to me really really want to be the "one"
Other's next to me, I think she have a bad mood and keep complaining about what i'm doing -_-
She sounds like my mom -_-
Then other girl asked me to give her my hard work 
Well I dun wan get any trouble, so i give her one and i get one..
but my fren said how fool i am o.o lolz
way to get home..
I c someone has been beaten cz he steal someone's wallet and he's crying o.o
All i can do is just shaking my head and take a deep breath
I jst keep walking with a song with me XD
phew...

Creative Girl

Everything that happen in her live makes her stronger
When people see There's nothing she'll see a different thing
She can write a poem even when she just saw a small rock under her
When someone makes her happy she will appreciate it
When someone makes her sad she will appreciate it
She don't want to see something just from one side
She always have a different sight of view

She actually like flaws
Perfection is overrated for her
"No one's perfect" She said

She can entertain her self
When she found out that no one's there for her
She always tried to change
To be a better person
Actually she dreams a little
She believe in endless possibilities

She's a visual person
all that happen can inspired her
Even sometimes she can be overwhelmed by all that she saw
Everything that happen to her can make her become a creative person. 

Fearless

 

She's not afraid of falling down
She didn't care what people will say about her
She never hid anything about her self
When she like it, 
When she's happy,
When she's mad,
When she's falling in love,
even When she's broken hearted
Everyone will know,
It's not like she want to expose it
Her smile can't lie
Her look can't hide


She got excited in everything
She love to try something new
She like adventure
She feels life is meaningless if there's no hard path
Even she knows sometimes it makes her difficult to choose
She'll feeling down about it
She will feel like there's no path
but it wont take longer
She'll get up soon
She'll realize if everything will be fine


people said that she's weak
People think that she should be strong when something hit her
But she's just an ordinary girl
If only they see how she's walking on her live
they will amazed to see
Because she's still alive 

So sleepy

Wow.. Today i feel so sleepy o.o
Even when i come to my office.. gosh my eyes so heavy
Tried to drink something that can make my eyes open but in fact i got sleepy more n more
At my lunch i ate with a fren, same restaurant and order umm some kind of mexican food but i forgot the name xD
its like umm a chip o.o with tomato sauce.
But i think the chip is much better if they put more salt on it (i like salty food) 
another story..
A man want to broke up with his gf 
Well he said it's all bcz of his girl keep changing his schedule 
so from what i heard, the point is.. Actually he dun wan his gf to change it cz he wants to have more time with his gf
but he dun know how to say it, so he jst keep saying no and no.
See.. this is how when a communication didn't work
I dun understand y people just don't say about what they want?
Actually i'm kinda scared when i heard someone said that he wants to broke up with his gf
cz the fact is, based on my experience then they said that.. -u know- -.-
Then i suggest that umm since his relationship is still 3 month, why didn't he give it a time o.o
3 month is nothing to get to know ea.
And...
ummm i wont meet my bf till my sat cz he have a crazy schedule
heyy but thats for his success.. 
Awww wish i'm there, so when he come back from work i can umm give him a kiss and smile then make him feel relax..
gonna miss my bf so bad.
My fren said if my msn stat was changed 30 minutes b4 i get home..
um.. i dun think someone knows my pass o.o jst my bestfriend. and she was with me all this time o.o
blah.. not important too tho :P
maybe she was so sleepy, so when she log to her msn her eyes read something's wrong. lolz
Awww can't help to hug my pillow like i hug my teddy bear.. 
I'll hug it now -run- :P

Being around people

D.. 
I'm so happy now....
There's a customer who's so funny..
I asked her to w8.. and she said.. she's patient to be w8ing..
Then she asked me back to w8 cz her husband is called her..
Then after she's finish.. she asked me..
"miss windy.. did you hear all what we were talking about? tell me tell me.."
Lol ... how can i'm not laughing.. 
The most funniest CH i've ever met xD
But as usual There's a CH who's so annoying -_-"
the card delivery still on SLA but he insist asking me when will it come?
How do I kno o.o There will be a traffic on the road.. 
And plus.. i jst read what's written there..
Then when i asked is there anything else i can help?
he said.. no.. what else you can help.. you can't help me on this..
And i keep asking the same thing.. cz i've told him what he should do -_-.. he dun even want to w8.
So before he keep wasting my time. Oops i have to ended the call... So c u :P
I've been so patient facing that CH.. -_- from a smooth tone of voice untill the kinda mad voice -_-
but glad My mood is back when i answer another phone.. :p
Plus.. There's a woman who's asking about her billing statement..
She's so old.. and i have to explain it very slowly.. 
glad finally she's understand xD..
Omg.. So happy when I can make other people understand or finding them a way out.
I'll do my best for my job.. cz i do like my job :P

Lovely huney

D.. 
As always.. happy everytime we did a cam..
<3 his sister n family..
His mom was looking at me and i was so shy ..
She asked my huney y I'm covering my face xD
Gosh.. I do was so shy lolz
Then i cover the cam with my hands xD
and his mom said "omg" lolz
aaaaaa... can't w8 to be with him >3>
He'll make it.. we'll make it ..
I'm sure about that <3

Hate off day

D....
I do really dun like when an off day comes..
Nothing can distracted me -_-"
Playing games.. done...
Um.. browsing done..
Talking to my fren done..
listening to song.. done..
I'm afraiddddddd...
U know what i'm afraid of rite??
counting to time hope this 2 days over soon
but when i work time passing so fast.. 
Sleeping but keep waking up o.o"
Well i will trying to sleep more 
And hope when i wake up my huney ish here >.<

big 5 personality traits me

This is so me o.O You Are Extraversion

You are a naturally talkative and outgoing person. Other people inspire and interest you. You are not reserved in the least. You'll have a conversation with almost anyone, and you're quite energetic. You are enthusiastic about life, and you enjoy socializing. You believe that almost everyone has something to offer. You have an assertive personality. You go for it, and you're not afraid to ask for what you want.

Which of the Big Five Personality Traits Are You?

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the argyle test

You Are Intellectual

You are beyond smart - you're incredibly brainy. You love to think. Ideas fascinate you, and you've been known to be quite bookish. You are thoughtful and studious. You are always looking to take things to a deeper level. You are also quite creative, though most of your creativity takes place inside your own head.

The Argyle Test

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Karaokeeeee

Yay.. I'm singing today with a lot of frennnnnnnnn
So fun... kinda tired anyway.. But worth it xD
Eh 2day.. 4 CH complain at me >| trying to fool me :! but i can handle it :!
33 calls again >.< need to work more hard >.< And bout put the memo.. umm still kinda confusing.. Icen jst got wrong transfer in his bank acc.. then he pay for all the bills XD.. Then we all pray "Thx for 2day.. we hope he will get a wrong transfer everyday" lolz And ummmm he asked me if i become a gf of itonk o.o I said.. "zzzz no -_-.. I have a bf and he's not my type" Tho D, I told itonk if im not the girl who's gona falling in love with someone that easy.. But its easy for me to like someone.. But u know its not just for a man.. i mean its easy 2 like everyone o.o.. Then he asked me.. "What about me.. Who am i for u" I said " u3yd2y3872d3@$(U@(_$%U.. A fren" he said " R u serious? ur not gona regret it one day.. really?" I said "Nooooooooooooooooooooooopeeeeeeeee blaaaahhhh" He have a GF O.O.. blahhh.. boys will be boys lolz He keep saying that he like a girl who can be her self. Never shy to express their self infront of everyone.. then i change the topic to another girl xD I said "Aha.. like ci2" After that when im about to go to the coffee bean he said "Say hi to ur fren.. and take care" "I said.. ahaaaaa byeeeeee" Gonna kill him if he's trying to say something like do u wan to be my gf.. seriously D.. >|
and dddddddddddddddddd
I spend too much money today -_-..
My flip flop jst got broken.. and have to buy new one..
then i buy a snack a lot but i didnt eat it XD.. idk i jst want to buy it o.o
Pu3 n panji sing together.. n they r so romantic >.< aaaaa... wish my huney's were here, cz gonna sing a song for him Oh yea this morning I do cam wif my baby.. But he was so tired and his leg is hurt too ;_; so it's jst me who show my cam.. aaaa i wan see him x3x I'm sure he'll make it to come here.. He's working hard for it.. i can see that.. And now i'm sure that i'm gonna be much more happy XD i do really like to have a mood like this.. can't w8 to talk to my huney But we will xD So.. I'm goin to sleep now.. and wake up around 2 or 4.. Hope can wake up at 2 XD Hasta luego D.. >3>

Garden test

You Are Successful

You don't give up easily. You are both stubborn and resilient. You are high achieving. You perform well no matter what situation you're in. You can be quite academic in your approach to things. You are scholarly and bookish. You are self-confident and undaunted by challenge. You are one nervy person.

The Garden Test

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Another broken hearted

O.O D.... Ummm.. my fren jst broken hearted..
With just a word saying,, "it's over, I;m not good for you.. You don't know me"
zzzz I hate when someone just trying to make an excuses..
It's not that she don't know who he is.. But he's the one who's not being open..
Feel like wan kill that man -_-""
Omg.. I can't believe why people keep break a perfectly good heart O.O"
What do they want? O.O?
Look, She's doing everything, anything for her "MAN"
Even I told her that if i have a bad feelings about this man o.o"
As always :P Always can feeling "something" about others.. But i can't read it for my self xD lameeeee
No wonder why she asked me to go out on sat .. She jst told me about what happen..
Well i can understand about her feelings.. I've been in that place b4 o.o
Well I know whatever words that will comes from my mouth, she won't listen cz she's still in broken hearted..
But i'm here, always ready to hear whenever she wants to talk.
>.< y This is happening to my fren now >.<
I can't told her to let him go o.o cz i know how hard it is..
so i jst keep make a silly things to keep her smiling xD..
Hope that she can get rid of that man everytime we laugh ..
Glad that we laugh a lot today... some simple things become so funny lolz..
maybe bcz im in a good mood to make them laugh xD
My mood always comes back to its place whenever i talked to my huney :$
I like this situation :P
Keep up the good work -talk to my self- lolz
even I know when sometimes i feel down i jst need someone to talk to or something to do to get rid over it lol...
what a good day D...
Wow.... Anoher interview o.o.. but i work already >.<
Dun wan to do something half and half o.o
 Dun matter how much they gona pay me XD
Once i do something i like i won't quit just like that o.o"
I wan to do the best for my job now D... ^_^

Lagi-lagi

hmmm... rese -_-.. udh bener kmrn2 ga inget2.. ini dr kmrn abis pulang kerja knp inget lagi -_-?
padahal udah jelas2 itu org nyakitin kek apaan tau.. and gw jg dh punya co'
dy juga dh punya ce'
ngedel lagi dr guild -_-"
lagian gw yakin hmmm masa ia dy bs lupa smua kecuali dy kena amnesia ahahahaa
ampunnnnnnn..... ini knp si jadi nginget2 dy >.<?
kapan lupanya kalo gini terus?
huney... maaf >.<

I'm back

Dear d..
It's been a long time i haven't been here. lolz.. for a week o.O..? aha it;s long for me.. You know why i'm back now?? Cz now i have something to write.. My mind was so blank this whole week.. >.<
Well I found something that really makes me happy. I like this feeling.. I'm getting better.. I think bcz of the cam that we did a few days ago.. At that time.. We share a lot of things, I can't explain it all here.. but yea was so much :$
Plus.. I'm learning a lot of things too about live.. This is what makes me stay alive :D
What I learn is that he really really open my heart and my mind plus my eyes.. To see that nothing is impossible in this world.. That I don't have to keep something that will never be mine.. Have to let it go cz there will be a replacement from god, and god give me him >3>..
Omg.. we do support each other.. He can make me happy.. He's a good listener.. And believe that everything is always have a way out.
Once he said he have to move to other places to find a better job.. Well, I'm worried but not much cz he said we can talk still.. Yea I dun really care where ever he is, since we still can talk then its not a big problem..
The most thing that makes me happy is that even tho we're in a long distance relationship but he never showed me that we have a big wall infront of our relationship... He made the distance disappear >3>.
We didn't do a lot of cam like b4.. Umm i mean like what I was doing in my past.. But once we do a cam.. it means a lot.. I dun care if i jst can talk to him like about 5 mins.. as long as it has something in the conversation.. I mean he didn't treat me like a security door.. lolz
I told him that I'm so thank him for his patient while he's w8ing for me to be a happy girl, forget about my past and cure my pain.. 
D, he do really work hard to pull me up from where I stand. He even told me if he wants me to become more independent.. well i told him, it's not what i meant.. i told him about what happen to me in my relationship here.. and we find out that we do have a diff culture that we have to understand.. We here.. used to b under control by our BF o.o then sometimes we do lie about what we did.. But D, i will keep telling him If im gonna go somewhere.. cz i dun wan to make him worried about me.. long distance, then  he will keep w8ing infront of the comp while im not here cz i didn't tell him anything,, well its not a good idea o.o""
But now... omg, i do really can share everything.. he knows that I smoke a lot now, tho he didn't like it but i will keep trying to make it last.
D, u know what.. I feel like he can read me o.o.. I dun have to say anything but then, he asked me 1st b4 i say something o.o its interesting o.o...
He really makes me so happy again...